A Rollercoaster Of Emotion.......

I have quite a few apologies to make, I've not blogged much this week due to feeling ill, but as you know on Friday Gizmo was due to come home and we were on cloud nine.....

On Friday morning my husband Mark left at 8.00am to go fetch Gizmo from Newmarket, it was decided that as i was having problems with my joints swelling, i wouldn't make the trip, sadly at 9.30am before Mark could even get to Newmarket, we got a phone call from the specialist David, Gizmo's pressure in his eye had gone up again, this time to 29 and we were told it wasn't going to be safe to collect him......I have to tell you, there were lots of tears from both Mark and I but we thought it might be just a little glitch.......

Sadly this was not to be, Gizmo got quite ill this morning and at 6am the pressure in his eye was 60 this is dangerous as it can blind him but also he would have been in an awful lot of pain.... The anesthesiologist was called in and a needle was placed into the eye to relieve the pressure, and later this morning Gizmo underwent surgery to have the shunt put into his eye....The shunt is a two and a half millimeter metal tube that will drain way excess fluid from the eye, however it can not stay in forever, the most it's worked for in a dog is three months and even then there has not been an awful lot of success with it, but it was Gizmo's last option...

We don't quite know what is happening or why this happened, the pressure in Gizmo's eye had been perfect for eight days but for some reason over the last forty eight hours it just went up and up...

Claudia telephoned us at four this afternoon to say the pressure has gone back down and that he'd come through surgery just fine, but that they'd decided to keep him sedated just to keep him calm and allow him to sleep... David came back in to do the surgery, Gizmo has made his way into a lot of hearts down at the AHT Claudia told me today that there was not a shortage of people who wanted to take him home, and that he didn't have a bad bone in his body.....Gizmo i have to say does have this effect on every one he meets..... he has the nature of a little mouse, i miss him coming to sit with me and trying to lift my arm with his nose to get onto my knee for a cuddle...that only happened about twenty times a day but i didn't mind....

This unfortunately is Gizmo's last chance of keeping the eye, if the pressure continues to rise now the specialists will have to take the eye out, although we've been assured Giz will manage with no eyes. We really don't care what Giz looks like we just don't want him in pain or away from us...we just want him home and it's going to be another week at least now, we are moving into week four on Monday and it feels like months since we saw him.....Claudia said we could go see him, but that would distress Giz and would be completely selfish of us...

I can't tell you how distraught we are, i feel so sorry for my husband, this strong man is totally devastated, he loves that little dog as do we all, but Giz is his baby...and he has been inconsolable for the last forty eight hours...

I decided to post today as I've had so many e-mails and comments and i didn't want anyone thinking that i was just ignoring them, we are just too distraught at the moment to think of anything other than Giz....i had planned on posting to tell you of two wonderful parcels I've received from friends this week and a card and images i received as a thank you, but right now i just don't feel up to it, if you do e-mail please don't feel that i don't care if i don't return mail straight away, being upset is causing the RA and Fibromyalgia to flare in my body and I'm feeling so poorly at the moment, i promise to get in touch as soon as i feel a little better....

I'm going to try to sleep now, otherwise I'll be no use to Gizmo when he does finally come home, we have fingers, arms and legs crossed and I'm still praying...I've added an old photograph of Giz at the top, it was taken a couple of years ago, he is so good he just sits and let you do anything....